"is that a taco?"

i miss you a whole lot.
i held down to you.
i'm weak when it comes to you.
i can't stop thinking about you.
i'll love you until you go away.

i can't really name a few good things about you except one. you meant so much to me and i can't erase it no matter how much i want, and i'm really good with erasing moments of my life. when i think of you i almost want to cry. i hate you so much but then again, i can't ever hate you so much. you never did anything to me except a couple things, but they're all really funny. you can't really understand me but whenever i tell you i haven't eaten at all that day you get this look in your face like, "Brooke, please eat. why haven't you eaten? i'm almost concerned."

i tried to get you to quit talking to me but i just can't. you don't get mad or upset with anything. i lied and you only said maybe we shouldn't do this, maybe we shouldn't do that. i was just trying to get you to go away because i needed you away though i like being with you and i wish it was more constant like how it used to be. i miss going to that cul-de-sac and laying in the field and going under the bridge and your stupid cats. i miss my little section that let everyone know that i was yours.

i told you that i was saving myself until i found someone again but that didn't last too long, i guess. you took me to the cul-de-sac and we just hung out. i forgot the feeling because i didn't do it in so long and then you gave the option of that. i wanted to save myself, i really wanted to, but i missed you too much and i was enjoying your company that day. so we did our little thing and every time we do that i still feel everything. i don't feel it with anyone else but you. i think this is because you were so special to me, though no one saw why. i saw why but i never gave you the credit that i should. i wasn't that good to you though i was the best thing for you.

feeling everything was so great though there isn't much there now. it's all past emotions that won't get out of my heart or my head. but all those feelings felt so good and real again until it was over. i forgot what it was like because i haven't done it in so long and let's just say, i threw out my vibrators because of it.

curiosity killed the cat, HA HAHAHA