elements of nothingness

i'd rather spend most days alone.
i wish i couldn't talk.
or people had a reason to leave me alone.

i wish i stayed inside and did what i liked and finding out who i am while i'm isolated from everyone else.

like those people when you go out to eat for breakfast and you feel so bad because they're eating only, i want that to be me. i want to sit there reading a stupid newspaper, drinking my stupid coffee waiting my stupid french toast, being alone.
i'll take walks alone and find new routes and take different routes and ignore everyone, if someone says a stupid hi i'll just walk on past as if i never knew them. then, they'll get all offended and start to not like me for not saying a stupid hello to them back which isn't really a reason to hate someone or not like them but people can't get along.

i just want to be left alone. i want to break down into nothing almost and become:
earth and wind.