i'm really happy lately and it's because i have everything back and more. the constant days of being fucked up is back and this time i don't have a stupid boyfriend to worry about. i can do whatever, whenever and however.
i'm really happy that i'm almost learning to love myself but each step i take forward to loving myself i find a reason to not love me and take half a step back. i feel like i deserve a lot more respect than what i've been getting and i'm tired of getting mistreated and walked upon. i'm learning and hopefully i'll get there.
lately all my insecurities have been leaking out and i'm afraid it's goin to make me weak. but because i tried to show that i'm strong and someone noticed and said i try to be something i'm not i'm slipping away.
this all connects to everything. i'm not strong and i try to be so i don't get walked all over and mistreated but someone noticed and brought it all out it made me stop to love myself and now i can't own up to anything except being not being able to see straight and making a complete fool of myself.
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